A Heart That Speaks. {Love}
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"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
-Phillipians 4:13
Alright, havent been posting for quite sometime. Today, I was really lost. Lost till the point where I literally broke down and cried and asked God for forgiveness. I feel terribly bad for what I did, and I couldnt take it anymore till I repented.
Today was my chinese mid-years, and I totally flung it because of my teacher. She didnt even let me finish reading, ohwells.
Since, no one will read this. I guess its safe to actually express my feelings here. Well today, I found out about my daddy and what he was watching. I feel so bad because yeah, I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED IN HIM. I can't tell anyone till I broke down.I saw him watching it yesterday, which was 9TH May 2011. Like I really thought he would be better after going to SOT and this whole year would be different but, why must this happen. And I just started crying and crying, I wish I had a friend by myside. Who really would understand me, and wont judge me.
I mean i've also done wrong, but I made it clear that I wont do anything already. I promise, and God, I'm so sorry. Please help me get over that mistake and instead of crying about it. I will learn from it. Right now, I'm so troubled because I cant do anything. Seriously, I am so lost. Because I'm so scared to tell my mummy about what I've done. And whats more about him right now, I know I'm heart-broken about Zac but now this is worse. I somehow think its a spiritual attack because its during my mid-years and suddenly so many things have happened. I feel so desperate to tell my mum about whats been happening in my life. But I dont know.
I am really really lost at what to do, about my daddy. How I found out was in my weblink, I think I should gather up my courage and confess to mummy about what I did, and make sure that I keep my promise. And about daddy, I feel like and I really really want to tell her everything, but I cant. Not right now, how will she react??? ):
I think people leave too much, I cant believe after Winiline left me, Zac and Darren Loy. Now the issue is with Daddy???
Oh God, if you can read this post, please help me. Hear my desperate cries, please God. Please help me, what should I do??
Lost and helpless, Zozo. ):